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Can’t tie me down

I’m all over the map lately.

I can’t seem to make up my mind about anything and it’s driving me and everyone around me just a little bit crazy. Me especially, though. It has a lot to do with the fact that I’m hastily approaching (31 days of school left!) the transitional point of this year where I leave one life and journey on to another; however, unlike last year when we knew we would be moving to China, the next stage of my life hasn’t already been planned out.

It is both exciting and daunting not knowing what comes next. In fact, quite a few people close to me are in the same position and all our sentiments are the same – it is terrifying not knowing where you’ll be or what you’ll do only two months from now, but your opportunities are limitless … like the horizon … on the beach … in Thailand! Oh, look! The Thailand pictures are up:

Ideally, I would like to continue to be all over the map, as much as it annoys me and everyone else. I’ve tried a taste and it seems that being out of routine and not knowing what’s going to happen tomorrow or the next day can actually be really rewarding. However, it’s really been a struggle against myself and my habits to keep from planning things. And sometimes that means that my planning comes out in weird ways, like coming home from work and immediately packing my bag for the next day, or making long lists of things I want to do in my life in the very, very distant future.

I’m a big list-maker and day-planner type, so telling myself to “ride the wave” kind of makes my skin crawl. But I know that in the end it will be good for me to not go crazy with control over every little detail about my life. Some things just can’t be planned … Unlike our next big trip!

We will be going to the Yunnan Province in China, followed by Beijing for a few days, and then we will wrap things up with about two weeks in Japan. I’m looking forward to food, the Great Wall, views, more food and karaoke bars:


A spring mix, new pics, pandas and tips

Lots of new things on the cloud lately!

I started a new mix this weekend in honor of spring and I just finished posting it today. It’s more of a mix to wake up to, or to wake spring up to. Spring for Shanghai has been coming and going and hasn’t really made up its mind if wants to stay, so hopefully these songs will nudge it along.

I’ve also posted a lot of new pictures to my Flickr account from when Thomas and I visited Chengdu and saw pandas! Here’s a sampling of our trip:

Yup. That’s a panda. A real one. And I hugged it for like, a minute.

Thomas has also started posting pictures from our trip to Thailand to his Flickr. For those of you who weren’t here, Thomas and I visited Hong Kong, Macau and Thailand during the last few weeks of January. All the pictures are really vibrant, and they make me feel warmer just looking at them!

If you have the time, please check out our pictures and past travel posts. We’re also pretty open to questions about traveling around the different places we’ve seen. We might even have some great ideas that your guide books don’t!

Also, in case you missed it, here’s my “Springtime” mix, and the track list:

1. “Go Round” – Cortex
2. “Holocene” – Bon Iver
3. “Walking” – The Dodos
4. “Quequ’un M’a Dit” – Carla Bruni
5. “24.12″ – B. Fleischmann
6. “My Angel Rocks Back and Forth” – Four Tet
7. “Promise To Me” – Mirah
8. “These Days” – Nico
9. “Nothing Better” – The Postal Service
10. “Sister” – Sufjan Stevens
11. “Bird Stealing Bread” – Iron & Wine
12. “Wish You Were Here” – Pink Floyd


“You can’t go out of this house or you will need to be out of this house.”

I teach two English classes here in Shanghai – second grade native English and fourth grade native English. Most of the time it’s grammar, vocabulary, and reading silly short stories from outdated textbooks. But sometimes it’s story-writing.

When I told my fourth graders we would be working on story-writing, having spent the last few months doing “explanatory writing” (glorified steps writing) and comparative essay writing, they were very excited. I was excited, too. Although I’m a huge nerd and love the cookie-cutter format of formal essays, I also like getting a glimpse of my students’ creativity through their writing, which is hard to do when they’re writing a five-paragraph essay about how to study for an exam.

A few months back, I even decided to make a semester-long project of it all and have my kids start thinking about their writing as part of a portfolio. The end looks very far off, and I have a feeling some of my students might not meet the deadline (the last day of school), but the attempt is what matters right now. I don’t think many of these students have been given the chance to make a book of their own creative work, and only what they like of their creative work. A few of the students have decided to really take this project to heart and put a lot of effort into making it look nice, which is all I really wanted anyway.

I was given a story to proof yesterday from one of my fourth grade girls titled “My First Dream.” The line in the title of this post comes from her story. It’s one of those sentences that makes you stop and go, “What?” Then you take two steps back, realize that English is not their native language, and commend them for being creative with what they don’t know how to explain very well.

“You can’t go out of this house or you will need to be out of this house” is kind of cool in that it’s kind of like the axiom “a=a” manifest in a story. Two of my favorite things: creative writing and philosophy! This student gets an A!


Fake Nostalgia

I don’t know what it is about nice weather, but it always makes me want to listen to music that makes me think of “the good old days.” A sort of solicited nostalgia, where the kind of music makes you yearn for memories that you may or may not remember.

I’ve been working on an extensive “Fake Nostalgia Mix” for the past few weeks because I recently watched the movie “Drive” three or four times and the music in it is really good. Like, give you goosebumps good. I am also feeling nostalgic for good old America as well. So I sifted through all my music, and found a few new things, to paste together this collection of music that makes me think of the past. Maybe it will strike a chord with you, too. That’s a little music humor for you …

Fake Nostalgia Mix

1. “Nightcall” – Kavinsky
2. “Call Me Tonight” – Active Child
3. “Not in Love” – Crystal Castles
4. “Heartbeats” – The Knife
5. “A Real Hero” – College ft. Electric Youth
6. “Ghost in the Boombox” – Memory Cassette
7. “Hearts on Fire” – Cut Copy
8. “Don’t Save Us From the Flames” – M83
9. “Left handed” – Lali Puna
10. “Vanished” – Crystal Castles
11. “Under Your Spell” – Desire
12. “Memories” – Hard Mix
13. “Minors” – Toro y Moi
14. “Nothing Like This” – J Dilla
15. “Phone Call” – Jon Brion
16. “Clouds Over the Pacific” – James Pants
17. “Summer Hills” – Japanther
18. “Love Will Tear Us Apart” – Joy Division
19. “The Dreaming Moon” – The Magnetic Fields
20. “Lazy Eye” – Silversun Pickups
21. “Cherry Chapstick” – Yo La Tengo
22. “Today” – Smashing Pumpkins
23. “Sometimes” – My Bloody Valentine
24. “Spider in the Snow” – The Dismemberment Plan
25. “pure affection” – eternal summers
26. “Trailer Trash” – Modest Mouse
27. “Cosmic Dancer” – T. Rex


Hong Kong and Macau trip in photos

Thomas is slowly going through all our photos from winter break and editing each one meticulously, so please be patient. It’s worth it!

He has finally made it through Hong Kong and Macau, but hasn’t touched the Thailand photos yet. Also, if you haven’t seen our pictures from Tokyo, they’re pretty cool.

Here are some of my favorites from Hong Kong and Macau. Check out Thomas’ Flickr account for more!

Hong Kong is famous for tall, skinny buildings.

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It’s the year of the dragon, which is also my birth year.

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We went to the overhyped nightly light show, “A Symphony of Lights,” at Victoria Harbor. I don’t really recommend it because it was super corny.

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The ferry out to Macau. I had hoped we would see more pirate ships …

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The lobby in Hotel Lisboa. So lush. Our bathtub had jets in it!

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Spring cleaning

The weather has cleared up a bit today, and I always seem to feel better in the first days of spring than I have in a long time during winter.

Winter in China has been exceptionally harsh, as there aren’t any cold, snowy days with the sun still shining like there sometimes is in Virginia or The Netherlands. There’s rain, not snow. There’s grey, not sun. There’s leafless limbs and puffy coats, pollution and infection, grumpiness and depression.

But now. Now there’s light. And that’s all that matters now. Just that one little pinhole of light has inspired me to write this post (along with other blogs I’m reading recently) and to start spring cleaning.

Whether I actively do it or not, spring cleaning is a big part of my life. I am a compartmentalizer in that if I don’t think I will use something in that exact moment that I’m looking at that something, I will throw it away and never think about it again. Clothes, books, papers, furniture, anything. I throw anything and everything away. In the end, I have less stuff, and I am grateful for that.

But this kind of spring cleaning that I’m talking about is going to be more emotional and spiritual for once. Around this time last year, Thomas and I were planning our move to Shanghai. We were studying for our TEFL certifications, looking up information about China, buying new clothes and generally busying ourselves preparing for a big change in our lives. This time this year, I’m working all day, then I’m sitting on the couch, watching a lot of TV, and distracting myself from my emotions.

I realized today that I won’t be able to figure out my next step in life if I don’t give myself the time to work things out in my mind. To do this, I have to sit still and stop distracting myself. To do this, I need to meditate.

At the end of almost every yoga class I’ve ever taken, during savasana, I’ve had some sort of great idea or realization. This tells me that my brain is always working, figuring things out, putting pieces together and coming up with new ideas, but I’m not always listening. They’re not even big ideas either. They’re usually just obvious things that have been floating around in the shallow end of my brain for weeks that have finally had a chance to make it to shore.

While I continue to tell myself “I don’t want to do this for the rest of my life” or “I don’t like this”, I also need to let my mind figure out its thoughts and the things it wants to do and think about. I need to stop and let the pieces fall into place once in a while, otherwise I’m not giving myself a chance to breathe. I encourage you to do the same. It’s easy:

Step 1: Sit down.
Step 2: Close your eyes.
Step 3: Breathe.
Step 4: Don’t move.
Step 5: Let your mind think, but don’t make it think.

You will be surprised what you’re capable of if you let yourself do what you can do.


More recent projects

Before we left for Winter vacation, I was feeling restless and unproductive. Winter is a hard time for productivity, and on top of that I was feeling homesick and just generally down. One day I decided to make a mobile out of paper snowflakes, wooden chopsticks and thread to sort of overcome the feelings I was having instead of constantly feeling controlled by them. Despite never having made a mobile before, and not really knowing how to do it, my falling snow turned out pretty nice.

The only problem was that it kept falling apart when I wasn’t looking, as I had made the decision to keep it sort of flexible and let the strings slide around without being stuck to the sticks. When the mobile finally fell apart and tangled up for the third time, I got frustrated and called it quits for about a month while we traveled around Hong Kong, Macau and Thailand.

While in Thailand, far away from my mobile and feelings of inadequacy, I discussed the project with Thomas. He asked me why I didn’t just glue the snowflakes in place so they won’t fall off. I had made many different sizes and shapes of snowflakes with different lengths of string, and I liked having the freedom to change up their configuration on the sticks; I realized, however, that if I wanted the mobile to stay a mobile and not just a pile of pieces, I would need to commit to one configuration and glue it that way.

It wasn’t until a week ago that I finally put the mobile back together for good. It’s now hanging up right above my desk, so when I’m working I can look up into a tiny snowfall. It’s one of the few decorations we have up in the bedroom since it’s really difficult to nail anything in the walls here. I’m planning to keep it up until we leave when it’s much warmer, so I can remember that time in my life here in Shanghai when I felt like I couldn’t and wouldn’t do anything.


Recent projects

Since coming back from break I’ve had a refreshed look at my life and work here in Shanghai. I’m making more of an effort to be positive about my situation, rather than railing on everything all the time (despite how funny it can be sometimes). Along with this, I’m putting a lot more effort into planning for my classes. Like, a lot more.

I’m still teaching 2nd and 4th grade English, but I’m also teaching 4th grade Geography and Science now. I’m no longer in the middle school, which is probably where this euphoric loving-life feeling is coming from, so I have a lot more time to prepare for classes and come up with fun activities for the youngins.

In 2nd grade we are working a lot with maps (in English class? I don’t get it either, but oh well …) so I’ve had my kids make their own maps and they seem to like it. This week we’re working with a map showing the areas where certain types of animals live around the world. There’s magnified images of the animals overlaying a world map. I looked at the picture in their textbook and thought it would be cool if I had my kids make their own worlds with imaginary inhabitants. In the spirit of planning and being prepared, I decided to make my own first as a sample.

This is the planet Fantastico. If you look closely, you’ll notice it’s just Earth backwards. Or the best Earth I was able to draw and cut out using safety scissors. Fantastico is home to several different types of inhabitants, but I’ve only included five here.

I made Fantastico using something like colored computer paper. It has the consistency of computer paper, rather than construction paper, which I imagine might be easier to work with, however I haven’t been able to find it in China. I made crude longitude and latitude lines and traced outlines of major areas of land from a map of Earth. Then I added a little flair to it – Fantastico is all about the swirl.

I kind of like the childish, crappy quality of it. I’ve never been very good at making “serious art,” like sketching or painting, but I’ve always been a fan of doodles and cartoonified animals and people. What I like most about this piece is the layered paper. This is the first time I’ve made a paper craft this detailed and time-consuming. I have ideas for making the process easier and a little smoother, but I like to think that, for my first time, this is pretty good.

I hope this will inspire my kids to use their imaginations and create their own worlds and creatures.


Winter break adventures – Pictures soon!

For our three-ish-week-long Winter break, Thomas and I went to Hong Kong, Macau and Thailand. Seeing Hong Kong first was kind of nice, as it’s kind of like an anglicized version of China with more diverse food options and the creamiest, dreamiest milk tea imaginable.

The weather was surprisingly tropical, hovering around the mid-70s most of the time. We went to Victoria Peak by tram, which was terrifying. At one point we were almost completely vertical, sitting on tiny wooden benches. I thought I was going to topple over backwards and fall out the back window – luckily that didn’t happen.

We also saw pink flamingos, which was awesome!

Macau was going to be our “trip to Vegas” without the Vegas. Imagine a Florida with big shiny buildings that’s pretty much void of people during the day, and with flashing lights and smoking Chinese gamblers at night. Thomas got addicted to a game called Sic Bo, which is kind of like Yahtzee.

We ended up winning enough to pay for our cab ride to and from the Venetian, which is the largest casino in the world. It has a fake Venice inside with fake apartment buildings built into the walls and clouds painted on the ceiling, and a canal flowing down the middle of the floor.

Lastly, Thailand took the biggest chunk of our Chinese New Year break. We flew from Hong Kong into Bangkok and pretty much immediately hit a wall of tourists. The lines at immigration were horrendous, and we took some advice from a fellow teacher and stayed on Khao San Road, which we were told was a cheap area for backpackers to stay and had good food. What we were not told was that every tourist coming to Thailand already knew this, as did every Thai person who had the intention of selling something to or scamming a tourist, save those people who hung around outside the Grand Palace.

Yes, we did get scammed. But only once! The guy was really nice, and luckily we both still have our wallets and passports, but we’re each 800 baht poorer (25 USD) for taking a crappy boat ride down the dirty side of the Chao Phraya River. Live and learn.

We pretty much blew out of Bangkok as soon as we could and went south to the famous islands for some much-needed relaxation. This is where it gets good:

  • We took a taxi to the train station in Bangkok.
  • We took a 12-hour overnight train to Surat Thani.
  • We took a 2-hour bus from Surat Thani to Krabi.
  • We took a pickup truck from Krabi to what we thought was going to be a ferry to Koh Lanta, but was just another port where another van could pick us up to take us to the actual ferry.
  • We took a van onto two ferries through Koh Lanta with our driver stopping every 50 feet to deliver packages to locals.
  • We were dumped off within 2 km of our final destination where we were meeting friends, so we took a tuk-tuk, which is like a tricked-out motorbike with a big people-wagon attached to it, to the bottom of the island.

That, folks, is how you travel around Thailand. All of this was arranged through an admittedly effective, yet, at first glance, super sketchy travel agency, and all for the low low price of 1,300 baht, which is like 40 USD. Despite being in transit for literally 24 hours, it was a tolerable experience, but it was a little touch-and-go in the van near the end.

Koh Lanta had mountains, cliffs, trees, monkeys and obscenely loud birds. The waters are bluer, the sands whiter, the food cheaper, the beer lighter, the sun more oppressive.

At one point, we realized how little we were spending in Thailand overall, and how many people knew and took advantage of this fact. People sell drinks and snacks out of their homes on the side of the road, their small bedroom hidden at the back of a cozy grocery store. The experience was pretty surreal, as this is probably the poorest place I’ve ever been in the world, and it’s really not that poor.

We went from Koh Lanta to Koh Jum by boat and stayed in wooden bungalows with squat toilets and mosquito nets. We rode precarious motorbikes around the island on treacherous roads; we spent our days reading, and our nights eating and drinking.

How can you see all this, you ask? We have hundreds of photos to upload to Flickr, and will do so soon I hope. But back in China we are coming up on our third week of the second semester, and I’ve started a new schedule that will hopefully be much more tolerable. I’m mostly working with 4th graders, but still teaching geography.

All in all, we are rejuvenated enough from our trips that we have a more positive perspective on our lives here in Shanghai. Even the weather is slowly looking up!


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